An Update May 2025 (An exciting Adventure awaits!)

Hello!
Yes, it’s been a while since I’ve written anything—and to those of you who still take the time to read what I have to say, thank you so much for being here and for sticking around.

The truth is, I haven’t felt the urge to write anything worth sharing. My brain has been occupied elsewhere and, well… life has just been lifing! I’ve been planning something very exciting—an adventure that’s been months in the making—and in the midst of all that, I simply haven’t given myself the time to sit down and write, or even really reflect on everything that’s been happening.

But today, I do have something to share.

In less than two weeks, my partner and I are setting off on a six-month backpacking journey across Europe and Southeast Asia!

Photo by Porapak Apichodilok

This has been a dream of mine for so long, and I can’t quite believe that it’s actually happening. I’m ready (or as ready as I can be) to take on this challenge, and I know it’s going to be life-changing in ways I can’t yet imagine.

That said, this past week has been a very reflective one for me, and I wanted to share some of the thoughts and feelings that have been swirling around in my head over the past few months.

Inside Bevin’s Brain – A Sample from the Last Four Months:

“Oh my God, I can’t believe I’m going travelling! This is going to be amazing!”
“Oh God! What have I done?! Am I even capable of doing this?”
“How do I even plan for something like this?”
“Should I start packing already? Do I have everything I need?”
“Will I make friends? Are people going to judge me because of my stutter?”
“How will I communicate with people if I’m struggling to speak?”
“This is going to be the best experience ever!”
“What’s the best route to take?”
“Will my stutter hold me back?”

You get the gist.

But through all of this planning, prepping, and overthinking, one thing keeps coming back to me:
I actually have no idea what this experience will be like.

And that’s okay.

I don’t know what this journey is going to look like.
I have a feeling I’ll love most of it—and I’m pretty sure there will be some tough moments, too.
I know I’m going to learn so much—about the world, about other people, and about myself.
I expect this experience will shape my relationship in new ways.
I’ll see breathtaking places and make unforgettable memories.
And I’ll be challenged in ways I probably can’t even anticipate right now.

And that’s the beauty of it.

Photo by Sebastian Voortman

Now, you might be wondering: how do I feel about travelling with my stutter?

The truth is, I’m nervous. I am worried.
But I’m working hard not to let that fear hold me back.

I will stutter—whether I want to or not.
What matters is how I handle those moments.

Because the truth is:

• I don’t need to be fluent to connect with people.

• I don’t need to be fluent to experience beautiful things.

• I don’t need to be fluent to create amazing memories.

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So, here’s to embracing the unknown.
To honouring the fear, but not letting it win.
To stuttering my way through six countries (or more) and soaking up every messy, magical second of it.

Thanks for reading. I'll try to keep you posted as I go.